It’s so hard right now. I just need you back. I want you to hold me in your arms and tell me everything is going to be okay. I wish I could hear you laugh at my stupid jokes. I want you to be there for me through my rough high school life. I wish I could sit on your shoulders, or use your pants as a napkin like you always let me do.
I know I sound like a freak, but all I want to do, is die. I just want to end my life now, instead of go through a life of pain and sorrow. All I want to do is see you again. I just want to be with you. You were the only person who understood me. I think the only reason I haven’t killed myself is because mom couldn’t handle it.
I just want things to back to what they used to be. I feel like such a bitch. The day you said goodbye to me, I just brushed it off like it was np big deal. I am such a terrible person. And I feel awful. Maybe if I just said I love you that day, then you would’ve stayed on earth. I’m so sorry for everything I’ve done.
I will always love you with all my heart,